So I have this theory for why every year seems to go by quicker and quicker. With every year that passes our total years lived increases making each individual year a smaller and smaller percentage of our lives, therefore making it seem shorter. Make sense?
For example, when we are ten years old a single year is 10% of our lives, but for a 90 year old, 1 year is only 1.1% of their life. So in a way we can say the years are in fact getting shorter, if my math is correct. Don’t burst my bubble here, It makes sense to me and it’s how I justify it. But now if anyone can explain why having kids speeds that time up even more, and then again even more when they start school, I am open to theories. And if anyone has a way to slow it down we need to talk. I will pay you for that magic! Like, a lot!!
I seriously feel as if we were just welcoming in 2017 and now here we sit on the first morning of 2018. Where did it go? I feel like we did so much, but at the same time I can’t even remember most of it. Anyone else? I mean I know we had some great times and made some fun memories, I have the pictures to prove it.
But how many of those days did I spending willing the clock to tick faster to bedtime? Isn’t that the battle of motherhood in a nutshell, willing the days away, but then yearning for the years to come back? Can I just snuggle that sleeping babe on my chest one more time!?
As they say, the days are long but the years are short.
I hate to admit it, but It’s so true!
So what are we going to do about it?
Last night my little family talked about our goals for the New Year. It was fun to see the unique answers my boys came up with. The answers totally fit their personalities and I loved it. They might have been a little silly, but it reminded me of their innocence, their youth, and their individuality.
We might have had to help McCoy come up with some other ideas, but lets face it, I loved the bluntness and honesty of his initial response so I wrote that down.
Anyway, I was reminded to embrace and encourage their differences and enjoy them for who they are right now, because it will all change too quickly. And that is when I recognized my own goal for this new year.
No matter who I am with, be present. Give them my attention, show them the value they are worth. Look them in the eye and make the memory, enjoy the moment. That is my goal. Be Present. The years aren’t going to slow down.
As I read this morning from Jesus Calling: Enjoying Peace in His Presence, a daily devotional for each day of the year, I became more sure of my goal. The author writes from the perspective of God and says,
“As you focus your thoughts on Me, be aware that I am fully attentive to you. I see you with a steady eye because My attention span is infinite. I know and understand you completely; My thoughts embrace you in everlasting Love… Give yourself fully to this adventure of increasing attentiveness to My Presence.”
He is FULLY attentive to me.
How comforting and encouraging that is to know. What a picture that portrays when I think of Jesus stopping all that he is doing, dropping down to a knee to see me eye to eye, to look me in the face with a steady eye and let me know that I am important, I am valuable, I am worth his time, I am deserving of his attention. And you are too.
My attention span is definitely not infinite like His, but I can do better. I can be more attentive to His presence and give others mine. Enjoy the moments as best I can. I know they all wont be perfect, and there will still be days that I look at the clock awaiting bedtime, but even in those moments I can still be present.
So that is my goal. That is my prayer for the year.